Thankful Thursday

I'm borrowing this from you thorny as I have been sitting here tonight thinking about life. Tonight my husband was bold enough to post his thoughts on his blog. I am so proud of him for opening up his heart and sharing his feelings. I know many of you read this and mostly know me as sarcastic and turning everything into a joke. I'm feeling a little different and am turning to my spiritual/thoughtful side.

It's almost one in the morning and I can't sleep. I've been thinking about the incredible things I have been blessed with in this last year. I met Josh on a blind date and thought it would go no where. 5 months later we were engaged. Three months later we are married in the Salt Lake Temple. I know without a doubt us being married in the temple has brought so many blessings to us. I always thought that no man without the patience of a saint could put up with me. I feel so blessed to have Josh by my side. I have never felt so strong to want to get up each day and get out of bed, because I know he is going to be there by my side to hold my hand, through no matter what. He has shown that more than anything I have ever seen, especially this week. Some of you know I battle with depression. I deal with it as best I can. I have had so many other things I battle with, such as anger, mood swings, and many others. Josh has struggled to understand it. Trying to describe what its like to someone who doesn't understand can be quite difficult. I have decided to start seeing a counselor for this. After visiting with the counselor and taking some tests, I have been diagnosed with having A.D.D with some bipolar thrown in there. I know a lot of people might be embarrassed to share this, or even shocked that I would ever post such a thing about myself. But to tell the truth, I am so relieved to know what it is that is wrong with me and now I can deal with it correctly. I can have a better life. I know this might sound silly to most but I am so happy to know that something can finally be done. The biggest blessing came when I called Josh to let him know. When I told him, he at first seemed a little concerned but once he heard how thrilled I was about it (that I actually don't feel like I am crazy), he too became happy that we now can work together to move forward. I am so blessed to know that he doesn't look at me and think, what on earth did I get myself into. He supports me and wants to be there for me in all things. The Lord knows what we need and who we need in our lives, for that I am truly grateful.