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1 year ago
Monday, September 22, 2008
Pain
I'm sitting here at 12:30 in the morning because I can't sleep. Yay for pregnancy...well that and I have pretty much slept on the couch most of the day. Saturday night I threw my back out pretty bad after being on my feet for 8 solid hours. So I spent all of today on the couch, so along with the back pain I got to be lucky enough to feel the baby trying to punch a hole through my stomach. I was literally getting it from both sides. Josh was gone at work, then to church, then to a family gathering, so getting up and down by myself was some serious work. All day all I felt was pain. I was so frustrated that I couldn't do anything. When Josh came home tonight, he told me our neighbor was in the hospital again, she overdosed on her meds. My heart was broken as she had promised us so many times that she wouldn't do that again. Josh called his hometeaching companion and told me they were going over to the hospital to give her a blessing. I needed to go. I threw my pain aside and got up and went to the hospital. She was so happy to see us. It broke my heart as she talked about the good things in life that were going for her, and then relayed the sad reasoning as to why she wanted to end her life. Josh gave her a beautiful blessing, reminding her of the atonement and it's purpose, and of the love of our Heavenly Father. When we got home Josh made the comment about how great it's been that he has been able to give so many blessings recently. As I have sat here I realize how negative I have been, being sad for myself with all this pain I have felt, when I have been given such great blessings. I feel so blessed to have married a man who is worthy to hold the priesthood, and help be an instrument in the hands of the Lord to help others. I'm blessed to have the atonement in my life and know the truthfulness of it. I think of the pain that Jesus suffered in the garden for me, and my pain grows smaller each time I think of my older brother giving his life on the cross. The biggest blessing of all is knowing that there is a God who loves me, and is rooting for me to make it back home to Him. It's sad when trials come upon us, but joyous when we can overcome them by remembering the blessings we have been given.
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6 comments:
I wish I lived closer and could come over and wait on you while you're out of commission like that!
That's too bad about your neighbor, but lucky her that she has such great neighbors!
Wow, thanks for making me stop to think how lucky I am to have so much. I hope you get feeling better!
I hope you are feeling better honey...not looking forward to getting to that point. :) I also hope your neighbor is doing well. I enjoyed this post and hope you feel lots better soon!!!
You are such a special daughter of God. I hope you will be okay. It can be hard when you have days like that. Way to think of the positive. Remember I love you!! Wish I was closer so I could be there for you on those rough days.
You are an amazing daughter of God.. It really is a trying time right now especially with your pregnancy but remember that you need to take care of yourself. I always believe that at times, we forget of the blessings of life cause we allow hardship to take over. It's times like these that certain things happen to us to help us remember. In your case it was your neighbor and I hope she will do alright. She is very lucky to have you and Josh close by. It is great to have a worthy priesthood holder in our household.
Well said. I'm sorry you have been so uncomfortable lately. Sounds like you have everything in perspective though. You're in the home stretch now and your backaches will be a thing of the past before you know it. I hope you feel better soon. Love ya!
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